seriously... this is not a joke.

i was working today, and i could not put on make up on my face cause it was peeling badly due to the sunburns.

hence i decided to play with body shop foundation on other parts of my body.

i was being playful so i tried to compare the current shade of my foundation; i'm using #04 (if i were to used body shop foundation) with the first shade. hahaha

guess what?

after years of soaking my skin under the harmful sun rays to the extend that, i've to use shade #05 or #06 now instead of my usual #04 and to be truthful i'm originally a shade #01 user. i tried the first shade on my collar bones and it blends super well, and if i apply it on my face i'll look like some geisha.

i shouldn't get any tanner than what i am now. regretted.

very sad.

i didn't expect my skin tone to change that drastically over such a short time due to my enjoyment of such sports.

something tells me that i should m.i.a from sailing for a period of time. and even forgo-ing the up coming expedition trip to Paula hantu later. i don't know what more worse/ damage would happen to my face.

working at body shop helps me gain more insights/ knowledge about skincare, make-up and body care; including the various fragrances that is able to help in different ways.

knowing that over exposure to sun rays even with a heavy dose of sunblocks that rates SPF 50+ doesn't help or cover you much really. even with sunblock it can't help to prevent your face much from early dark pigmentation and wrinkles. just thinking that i'll look older than my actual age or among my peers makes my body start screaming.... " stop going for sailing, either m.i.a or quit it. i'll still want to look young even when i've hit 30 or older!" the thought of it is so scary. imagine if you're only at a tender age of 20 or 21 (the prime time of your youth) however because of your activeness under the hot sun causes you to look 10 to 20 years older with all the dark spots known as melanin and wrinkles. i certainly did not wish for that, when i first join the co-curricular activity.

damn... what should i do??

fine i should think of a solution asap. however in the mean time, i should really study hard. no matter how much i dislike it, i should still do it and score well, just get over it. i've been fooling around and neglecting my studies way too much... imagine having movie marathons for the past 2 study weeks till the wee hours of 5am everyday w/o fail. wow... i'm a genius! alright i got to stop and start to wash up and began that painful journey of studying. sigh.. sometimes having to live life like this is a pain in the neck.

(p.s i apologise if my use of language is poor :) )

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